Much of my life was spent feeling barely visible. If I was to paint myself back then, I would have been undefined, pale and shadowy...really not much of anything. I just did not feel like a substantial person. I felt weak and powerless over many things that were bigger than me in my own life. I think that is why every time I would pick up my brush to add color to this painting, I stopped myself. It finally settled in my heart that it was fine the way it was. it may not look good enough to some. It may not be well-defined or even look finished. But to me, it is ethereal, gentle and full of promise. And although she is painted with muted colors and lines, she is anything but invisible! This warrior bride is brave and ready! She is holding open the curtains of life that have kept her small and safe and she is gazing into the mountains that she knows will be her new stomping ground. But now, those mountains don't scare her. They are not big and black and ominous anymore, but instead, hold the promises which have been whispered unto her heart for so long now. "
"I have made up my mind until the darkness disappears and the dawn has fully come, in spite of shadows and fears, I will go to the mountaintop with you-the mountain of suffering love and a hill of burning incense. Yes, I will be your bride." Song of Songs 4:6 The Passion Translation (of course:))